Man, I never though I would value naps and time for naps so much. Now, it's almost required.

I just woke up from a nap and I'm still a little fatigued, but overall, I feel much better. The school year this year has been particularly hard on me, so I've been extra tired.

Although, I don't seem to be loaded with homework as much as I thought. I'm sure that will all change though.

I've been a bit of a night owl as well. But I think that will change over a course of time. I think I've found a regular routine for when I get home. Unfortunately, it includes homework being a bit later that previous years. I just hope I can work in a permanent time for it all.

Oh well, it's only the second week of school and it doesn't feel like any time was missed. I guess that's the thing about High School, after Freshman year, it's all too usual to be up there outside of school hours.

I also have to sign up for Theatre. I can't decide if I want an acting role or a technical role, but either way, I have to sign up for auditions, which are tomorrow. If you guys have any help on which I should sign up for, please let me know.

I now officially have a different respect for my dad now. He's been snooping through my personal life and finding out little bits and pieces of info that are miniscule, but nonetheless, personal.

He now knows about me and Anna. This makes the 3rd thing that he's found out through someone else.

The only thing is, in his drunken slurs, he let out a little bit too much today about how he "could" find things out if he wanted. Turns out, he knows a private investigator. Prior to mentioning this, he kept stating that I would be surprised to find out what a $20 could do.

Now, I don't know if he really has been paying a PI to watch over me, but I find it very discerning. He claims he doesn't want to know about my business, but he claims he could if he wanted to.

I now feel like I can't trust his word anymore. And the unfortunate thing is, this isn't the kind of trust you can win back over time. I don't feel I can trust him because he can break it at anytime without me knowing it. I feel so betrayed at the fact that he would do this, and yet, there really isn't anything I can do about it unless I actually met the PI and told him to back off.

But that's not happening, so I've decided that even if I do have a Private Investigator watching me where I go, I'm just gonna continue doing things as though my dad won't find out, because if he has the guts want to find out how I live my life, then he must have the guts to handle disappointment and shock.

I may just be acting irrational from the disappointment I have in him now, but either way, I don't think I'm going to look at him the same way.

Ok, I was on Facebook and realized that my aunt saw a test I took and I just had to show her reaction to you all.

I would write some more, but I'm extremely exhausted from the past couple of days.

Ahh, the first day back to school.

...I hate it. My day went very well, it's just that I don't like the fact that school is back. Honestly, I don't think I'm ready for the commitment I decided to make towards my school work. I made it a goal of mine to knock my shitty ranking from 110 to somewhere in the top 50. Huge stretch, but I feel if I can stick with it, I can definitely make it.

I liked my teachers so far. I meet the rest of them tomorrow.

Someone I'm not so sure about is Mrs. Garner. I'm not quite sure I like her. I know it sounds weird, but unlike most other teachers, she seems young and fun, but I just can't really stand her personality. She seems to have the mindset that if you don't love her, you hate her.

Although, it is a tad early to pass judgement, I still don't think I like her as a person. She seems very bossy and demanding. Either way, I know I'll like her more than Coach Herber. I am definitely not looking forward to her.

Every year since 7th grade, I've always had my schedule changed in some way, whether it be a rearrangement, or a whole different class. Either way, I think I know what change I'm going to have this year. I'll just have to wait until tomorrow to see if she really is as bad as I think she'll be.

But aside from all that, I did enjoy my first day back. I had fun making fun of the Freshmen, calling them fish, and bossing them around. I even noticed that I had one looking up to me. I felt pretty special. I'm not that used to people asking "Are you Caleb Bain?" "Yes" "Awesome!"

Yes, that is the exact phrases mentioned from a fish. My goal of reaching local popularity is beginning to blossom. It probably isn't good that that Freshman said that, because I know it's just gonna stimulate my ego. But hey, it's been a while since I've been able to stand proudly on my pedestal, so it's all good.

Hope everyone else's school day went as well as mine.

Not too long ago, I decided to stick with being in more open relationships, to help keep my schedule free and not make everything so hectic, what with school, a possible job, and studies I've picked up on my own outside of school.

So I've been waiting to post because I've been waiting for my Mayhem pictures to develop and get them scanned/uploaded.



This first pic is of Whitechapel. I have to say, I only really knew one song by them, so it means alot when I say I was impressed by their skills live. They played This is Exile, probably their best known track, and it sounded the exact same live. They were the best band that could've opened at Mayhem.



This is The Black Dahlia Murder. These guys were awesome. They made everyone smile just because you could tell that they were there to have fun. While most bands try to act brutal the whole time, these guys just smiled and were having a great time.


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Today is the Mayhem Festival! I got maybe 2 1/2 of sleep tops last night due to all the excitement. Right now I'm just trying to get everything together and waiting for Zach to come get me so we can eat and venture off to Dallas. I haven't been this excited in I don't know how long. I got 2 disposable Polaroid cameras, so check back in a couple of days for some pics from the show. I'm hoping to maybe score some autographs from some bands too, but I'm not too sure about the odds of that. Either way, today is gonna be a hell of a day. Hope yours is even 1/2 as good as mine!

So recently I downloaded a cracked version of Fruity Loops 7, a music studio software.

I was playing around on it last night and started taking a stab at the vocoder abilities. They were awesome! Its alot weirder than the musicians make it seem, because although I should speak more monotone, I can't help but find my voice wandering with whatever note I'm playing at the same time.

And something I also didn't realize was how hard it is to find things to say to test it out, seeing as how I'm not much of a singer at all.



Tomorrow is the Mayhem Festival and I can't stop thinking about it. For some who don't know what the Mayhem Festival is, it's a large summer concert featuring nothing but metal bands. This year, Slayer and Marilyn Manson are headlining, and the other bands playing are Killswitch Engaged, Bullet for my Valentine, Cannibal Corpse, The Black Dahlia Murder, Job For a Cowboy, Whitechapel, Trivium, Hatebreed, God Forbid, and All That Remains.

So as you can tell, this is like the heavy metal version of Warped Tour. I'm positive that I'm gonna be sore afterwards, and probably not gonna be able to speak for a day or two, but it's all worth it. I just hope I can find Weasel, a friend of mine who's a huge metalhead like me, and his posse, since they're going too.

As some would know, I've been amped for Mayhem Fest, which is this coming Saturday. Well, as my luck would have it, Zach, my ride there, got grounded and is saying that he may not be able to go.

I don't know why its so hard for me to ever get a ride to concerts, but I just hope this doesn't end up like Ozzfest a few years back. I think I'm gonna talk to Quan and Weasel and see if I can get a ride from them. They seem like they would be more fun to go with anyways. I just hope they can give me a ride.

Well, not much to this post. Just wanted to let you all know how my Wednesday is going.

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Registration went well today. Aside from the usual annoyance that is my mother, I managed to get out of the with my dignity intact. I'm not t pleased with having Coach West for P.E. I'd much rather have Coach Barker. He's such a fun coach, because he's so laid back that he doesn't get mad when I heckle him for sounding like a redneck, or the way he walks like he's got a stick up his ass, or when I call him gay.

...now that I think about it, I was really mean to him. Lol kinda funny.

Anyways, I guess I'm overall happy about my schedule. But that could change depending on who I end up having classes with after tomorrow and Wednesday.

Ok, so today, my dad got pissed off at me because of the video I posted yesterday.

This makes that the second time that he's gotten on to me about something that I've had posted either on here, or on Facebook. I'm not so sure that Facebook is a good choice for me. Sure, it's easy to deal with, quick, and simple. But apparently, I must have people on my friends list who don't understand teen confidentiality. I have a feeling it's definitely someone in my family doing all of the blabbering.

What makes me even more angry, is that they don't even have the courage to talk to me about it. They just go and tell my dad, then I get yelled at. And I don't even know who it is spreading this. I know for a fact that my dad doesn't keep up with all of my online activity, so he couldn't possibly know about all of this, unless he has someone to supply him with the info.

So, I think I may delete my relatives off of Facebook, because it seems that they can't respect me enough to keep my business confidential.

So I've been crazing over this Keyboard that I shall be getting in the near future.

It's a Roland JUNO-Di. To some, this may be a boring post, but I don't care. It's here for you to nitpick at however you choose.

Here's a demonstration video of it. Tell me this doesn't fascinate you.

Oh yea, and there may be an add at the beginning, so just be patient.

Click the picture to be able to read it first.

I'm sure this doesn't come as a surprise to some people, but it just angers me that Tila Tequila would have the audacity to think that she deserves to be considered a rap legend. What angers me more, is that she uses the excuse of what she calls "Pussy Power" to convince people that they should vote for her because she's a woman.

I may sound sexist at times, and this may be one of them, but being a woman is no special reason to be considered among other greats. I mean, personally, I don't see what makes the female race so exceptional. I'm not saying that they're not important by any means, but I believe true sexism is when you praise someone on their accomplishments due to their sex. It may seem I'm bashing the female race more, but that's because that's where I see it the most. I personally don't care if woman accomplishes something that a man has, but they get recognition of it because they are a woman. I feel that they should be praised on the accomplishment more than the fact that they had to "overcome their gender to do it." I cannot stand feminists because of their Über-high level of sexism. I wish that there would be more people to look at it that way.

The same goes for skin color races. If someone discovers the cure for cancer, I couldn't care less about whether they're a man, a woman, white, or black. Hell, I wouldn't care if it was a black woman. I just think people need to stop looking at race as an excuse to be exceptional. I'm not saying all races are the same either. All races, in my humble opinion, are exceptional in certain aspects of their lives. Not the stereotypical kind of exceptional, but you understand what I mean.

It just bothers me how people seem like they have to watch what they say because they don't want to offend somebody because of their color or sex. I can understand if someone is offended by cursing or a vulgar action. But personally, I don't think people have the right to be offended because someone says, "Hey, look at that person over there." "Which one?" "The __________ one." There's nothing wrong with using someone's race to describe them. Honestly, it's what makes them unique in certain aspects.

Well, this seems like an awfully long post, so I'm just going to wrap it up by saying Tila Tequila shouldn't be voted for as a legendary rapper, since she's only been in the music industry for like 2 1/2 years.

So today is David's birthday party. I'm looking forward to it. I've got a birthday prank planned out for him. I think he'll like it.

I've finally found a keyboard that I plan on sticking with on getting. The only bad thing is that since it costs $700, it's gonna have to be a birthday/christmas gift AND I'm gonna have to help pay for it. But overall, I believe it will be more than worth it. I can't help but constantly think about it though. But oh well.

My mom has suddenly decided that she's eager to let me drive her car now, because she thinks that I won't be able to pass my driving test. Though that angers me that she thinks that, I'll just forget about it while I'm driving everywhere. For the longest time, she wouldn't even trust me to drive to Parkeway. I hate how she can never make up her mind on what she wants. It's so frustrating.

Anyways, with the coming of David's birthday, comes the realization of 2 things:
Summers about to be over.
Mayhem Fest is drawing near!

I cannot wait to see Slayer, Bullet for My Valentine, Job for a Cowboy, Whitechapel, Marilyn Manson, Killswitch Engaged and more! It's gonna be badass.