One paper down, another to go.

At this rate, it only seems natural that there should be a nice calm breakthrough in all of this insanity. I feel that my head is in a swirl of colors, so while I like them, I am also aware that I can't see anything but the colors.

I'm ready for the fog to lift.
I'm ready for the train to stop.

I need to think.
I need to breathe.
I need to live without a schedule for a while.

Thanks to a poem we are recently studying in Miss Garner's class, I have felt the dire need to live my life freely. But due to the raging amounts of stress I've been having to put up with, I don't see how that is going to be possible.

If everything goes as planned, Friday should be the break I need. My plans are to spend some time with a good friend that I haven't spent time with outside of school in forever. Then, I'm hoping that after our away game ends, I can spend some much sought after alone time with Jessica.

I've been enjoying theatre rehearsals, but right now, I could do with a couple of days away from that. I could do without having to go to GYM. I could do without the pressure from my parents. I want to relax.

In the near future, I plan on waiting for a warm, sunny day and I'm going to drive to a field and just do absolutely nothing. Maybe I'll take a nice little nap in the grass. Maybe I'll stare at the clouds. Maybe I'll get there and leave shortly after without having done any of these things. I just want to have some alone time where I can do what I want. I need my surroundings to be covered with music in order to soothe my frenzied soul.

If I don't get some rest and relaxation, I just know that I'm going to get sick. My body has already tried to throw a fuss about 2 weeks ago, but I've managed it very well. I don't need a full on illness to set me back any more. What makes this so frustrating is the fact that I know I'm not the only one swamped at the moment with so much curricular-related work.